Hi there! Long time no talk – crazy how time flies. First, I’ll just say that Greece was AMAZING, and I had a wonderful time doing something new and being outside of my comfort zone (in SO many ways!). My Yoga Teacher Training was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. It was a huge challenge, and for the first few days, I was positive I’d made a mistake by signing-up. But, I was wrong – I really just needed to adjust to my surroundings and change my mindset. I kept telling myself there was no way I was going to make it through, but I persevered, and here I am…a newly certified yoga teacher! I am immensely grateful for the entire experience! And I am extremely proud of myself for choosing to do something just for me, for challenging myself, for growing, for doing the things I did not think I could do. When you get the chance to step outside your comfort zone, DO IT – you just might surprise yourself.
On another note, I’ve definitely been quiet around here, but with good reason. While in Greece, and since returning, I decided that I’m going to bring this website to a close. Cesca Rose doesn’t feel very authentic to me, and it hasn’t since the beginning. Let me clarify, though – the NAME hasn’t felt authentic to me, not the content. The content is me at my most vulnerable, straight from the heart, and I am blessed to have allowed myself the opportunity to share my healing. But back to the name for a second – it’s just not me. At my YTT, being authentically you came up time and time again. Be you, be you, be you. And it just really hit home for me. I guess it’s a little hard to explain, but I know I’m making the right decision in letting this site go.
I think what’s interesting is that this site was never intended to be what it turned out to be – a place of my healing. When I started this site, I was positive I had healed, but what flowed out when I wrote showed me differently – I really had so much healing left to do. For me, from beginning to end, I can see how far I’ve come. It’s like I was able to see my broken pieces heal into something whole again. And not only that, but I also watched myself mend two broken relationships in my life. So, as much as this site was not what I intended for it to be, it was exactly what I needed. Funny how that works, huh? But then again, God works in mysterious ways. I’ve seen myself come full circle now, which allows me to feel good about moving on from here.
From this day forward, I am committed to figuring out what “be you” means for me. Yes, I am who I am, but what about all those parts of my potential that I haven’t yet tapped into? What more can I do in my life to be authentically me? And in doing so, what can I offer others? What can I offer you that would allow you to be you, more authentically? The questions and possibilities are endless.
And with that, I’m on to my next project. So, until then – thank you for being on this journey with me.