I had plans to write a big, long post about my story before diving into individuals posts about the lessons learned that I listed here previously. But, my weekend didn’t quite go to plan, which is okay. I was kind of blah, and overall, just didn’t feel too great.
Then there was yesterday, when I planned to try again. But, I listened to my heart and what I knew I needed. I allowed myself to feel even when I didn’t want to. And really, that feels worth noting and acknowledging. I say that because of all the times I needed to feel but wouldn’t allow myself to. The fact that I allowed it yesterday without pushing it down, pushing it away, and burying it…means I’ve grown. And it’s a big deal to me. So, yay for growth!
I’m not sure if I mentioned it here before, maybe I have, but one of my favorite yoga videos is Love Yourself by Nicky Jones. I originally found her, and the video I believe, on Do Yoga With Me. And it kind of just became that video I turn to when I need to let go, release, and cry it out. Yesterday was that kind of evening. I know I needed it, so I got all cozy, got my comfy blanket, rolled out my mat, and I did this 33-minute yoga video. And yes, it’s exactly what I needed.
I don’t do this video often, only when I NEED to. That may sound odd, but it’s really just an indication of how far I’ve come and how well I know myself now. And I’m really proud of that and of myself. If you don’t have a go-to yoga video for tough times, I hope you’ll give this one a try. I’m not sure why, and I guess I can’t really explain it, but for me, there is peace and comfort in Nicky’s video. And it kind of let’s me know everything is going to be okay as long as I keep returning to myself and loving myself.
Sometimes I think I return to this video as a reminder, specifically for this line… (more…)