Okay, so let me be honest – I feel a lot like hell today. It’s been a rough week. But, I’m here – I’m showing up, even when every ounce of my being is tired and screaming I want sleep! I’m that deep-to-the-core tired. You know, where you’re not physically tired – I slept over 7 hours! – but you’re emotionally tired, is it? My soul is tired. That’s it.
But, I’m here.
I was going to move ahead with my post on Lesson #4 about learning how to truly love myself, but I know I’m not in the ideal headspace to write that post right now. And that post and you deserve my best and more, so I’m going to wait. Be on the lookout next Tuesday for that post! Also, see how self-aware? I like it.
This week, because of how I’m feeling, I’ve been sinking myself in music and sleep. But still keeping up my workouts, so points for that amazingness! Proud of myself for that. But yes, music! It’s my everything, my go-to. These last two days have been all country music, which is how I know I’m in that space that no other music will really satisfy. Basically all modern country songs are good and I don’t have to skip, or hit next, or get frustrated, which just adds to the mood. Funny, right?!
Have you ever turned on your Pandora, or whatever you use, and like the music is ALL over and just not doing it for you, and you’re like REALLY PANDORA, can’t you just get it right? But then you realize – uhhh, Pandora is an app…it’s your mood that’s the problem. Pandora can’t get it right because your mood is confused. LOL!
Curious what music y’all listen to and if it changes based on your mood or how you’re feeling? What’s interesting for me is that when I used to be in this mood – this leave me alone space – I would absolutely blast “Numb” by Linkin Park. Why? Well, because it would literally be so loud I couldn’t possibly have any other thoughts. And therefore, it’d numb my emotions. (more…)