You know my mind is always going, right? Well, in the midst of thinking the other day, I jotted this down – I’m always worried about where I belong, instead of just belonging where I am. And it was like a total Aha! moment for me. Perhaps in just belonging where I am, I’ll be lead to where I belong. Total revelation. It was after this that I decided I need to keep moving forward with my life and stop waiting for something…especially when I don’t even know what that something is. How silly! You see how we constantly stall ourselves by thinking I’ll be happy when, I’ll be ready when, I’ll do this when… – oh my goodness, stop the madness!! What an insane and incredibly unhealthy and unhelpful mindset.
I’ve shared a lot here about vision boards, creating the life you desire, and being grateful in life. I’m working to keep focused on this mindset, instead of my old way of thinking. I think it’s good and things only go up from here. I’m realizing more and more each day that I need to control what I can. And that’s ME, my mindset, how I think about things. Sure, it’s easy to fall back, especially on a particularly rough day, but you just have to keep in mind that’s it’s just a day, a thought, a feeling, and that it’ll pass – you just have to feel it and let it go. That was me on Friday – being so exhausted after a long week at work and feeling the negative downward spiral of a defeated mindset. So, what did I do? I allowed myself to feel whatever I was feeling, I went to sleep, and then I woke feeling better and was able to let it go.
It’s in those moments that we can’t allow ourselves to get stuck and continue on the downward spiral. We have to stop, acknowledge what’s happening, and make the choice to overcome it. To rise above. When we allow ourselves to get stuck, that’s when these negative thoughts creep in. When you question yourself, what you’re doing, where you belong. When all you really feel yourself asking and wondering is why, why, why. But instead, let’s keep asking ourselves what am I to learn from this? I swear it makes a world of difference.
What have I learned from my not-so-great days when everything feels wrong? That it’s just my mindset for that moment, that I have the power to change it, that it’s entirely up to me how I decide to view my life. When I had that thought about belonging, it just really hit home. What have I even been worrying about and why? I think my thought process has been that I’ll make this move when the time is right. News flash: there is no right time. We only have right now, in this moment – nothing more, nothing less.
When it comes to belonging, it’s in my heart and in my gut instinct that I belong somewhere other than where I am, doing something other than what I currently do. Instead of letting these thoughts and feelings give me anxiety though, I need to see the positive. Honestly, what wonderful thoughts! And how great that I have these things to look forward to – even IF I don’t yet know what they are. There is so much beauty in that and so much to be thankful for. And so much to work toward because I know more exists! This is where it’s important for us to remind ourselves to trust our journey, to have faith in the process.
I’ve been thinking for a while now about renting or buying a place of my own, but I’m always feeling concerned, thinking what if I end up wanting to move elsewhere? Well then, I move. I finish my lease, sell my home, whatever the case…and move. Like, why let something like that hold me back? Am I the only one out here thinking like this? Doubtful, I know.
I’m not a free-spirit really (understatement of the year!), I am a planner – which I’ve been trying to loosen up on and just learn to be – but, on some level, it’s nerve-wracking to me that I don’t have all the answers. Then again, who said I’m suppose to? It’s just an unrealistic expectation and EXCUSE that keeps me stuck. This is why I’ve been working to release this sometimes mindset of mine, so that I can move forward with hope and positivity. And to let myself know that I am moving toward something great, something more, despite not knowing what that something is. And this is where I remind myself that there is beauty in the unknown – repeat, repeat, repeat!
In keeping with a more positive, healthy mindset, I am making the decision to rent or buy my own place after returning from Greece and settling back in. My moving forward positively begins with this step. With allowing myself to belong. No one said it’s permanent. I’ll find my forever home – whatever that means – when I’m meant to. That’s all there is to it! So, instead of trying to figure it all out NOW, which is hella stressful, just LIVE and go with the flow. See, when I started this site, I let it be known that I’m just a simple woman trying to find my flow in life. So, here I am doing it! And as I always say here, you’ll get to where you’re going even if you don’t know where you’ll end up. And THAT is the beauty of life!
Keep moving forward, one foot in front of the other – because forward is forward, no matter what.
I’ve been really honest in my posts about my thoughts and where I’m at. It’s easy to see my ups and downs and the struggles I experience. It also shows that I’m human and that nothing about life is linear. I won’t sit here and pretend that, just because I make a conscious effort to have a positive mindset and an attitude of gratitude, that I don’t struggle still. Because I do. But, what I’ve noticed is that my perceived “bad” days are fewer and fewer now. I know now that it’s my decision to let that bad day linger, or to change my mindset and choose to have a good day. And really, it’s not about having a good day, as much as it’s about BEING a good day. The choice is mine, the choice is yours. Which brings me to another line I always like to say…
That’s the beauty of life – choices.
I meant for this post to be just about belonging, but do you see how it quickly turned into being out mindset? I think there’s a lot to take note of here and to learn from this. Everything comes back to us and how we choose to look at things. There is more within our control than we think. There is also a lot we cannot control – and mostly control in life IS an illusion. But, what we CAN control is ourselves, our mindsets, how we see things in the world. It literally all comes back to us. Change your mindset, change your life! And with that, I’ll leave you with the serenity prayer.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.
This prayer is on the wall in my parents’ kitchen and is a daily reminder to me that I have the power to change the things I can…I just have to find the courage within me to do so. The yoga teacher leading my YTT in April – Candace from Yoga by Candace – also has this tattooed on her side. And well, that just felt like a sign to me that I am on the right path in life.
Okay, one more thing-
Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway. – John Wayne